mumbai attacks:sifting through the reactions

i am sitting wondering whether or not i should be there at gateway at 6 today. everyone i know is going. i’d rather not go. i’d rather not come back with a feeling that i might have done something, contributed in some way. because this seems shallow. no i am not commenting on what others are doing because well something IS better than nothing.

but a whole lot of posts and opinions are making me think in another direction. another direction from Enough is Enough and Lets fight Back. These two posts in particular.

really,though. everyone is scared and everyone is hurt and disturbed. everyone has spoken of sleepless nights and paranoia. everyone has also spoken of what we should do, what we want to do. and i am glad for all of us.

but this does seem like an insult to all the soldiers who lost their lives in the past if we remember only a few of them, doesn’t it. it does seem like an insult to the pain of those who experience it everyday and we don’t care because north east is back of the beyond its not a coffee shop which have personal memories for all of us.

but then again what i speak of sounds like futile cynicism, it IS better to do something than nothing. i don’t want to do nothing, i am going to empower myself in the way i know i need to. tonight i am going to read and understand what a PIL means and how it works, i am going to understand what Z security etc means and what the whole confusion about this 49 O is, which is somehow promising us magic but everyone is conviniently not reading the fine print that says this is ineffective in electronic ballot system. okay maybe not ineffective but the voting decision is not secret any more.